On the Bridge
Welcome to an in-depth look at "On the Bridge" Here you can learn about the origin of the album and the songs included in it.
About the Album
"On the Bridge" is my next album following my EP "Summer Memories". This album is a concept album about my life being an autistic person growing up in a world not built for people like me. Right before COVID-19 hit, I was exploring my identity and discovered my neurodivergence through past experiences I have had. In March 2020, we were sent home from college due to the pandemic, and during this time, I researched autism and learned that many of the common traits of autism like sensory issues, special interests, social issues, meltdowns and shutdowns are traits that I have. Since the initial quarantine in early 2020, I have became an activist for autism and disability rights on social media. I have also been very vocal about my experiences as an autistic person on my online presence. Because of all my research and self-discovery and acceptance, I felt that now was the right time to write an album about my experiences and be vulnerable.
The album starts with music all about being proud of who I am, and then continues into explaining how I find value in objects that have significant meaning in my life. The second track "music player time capsule" mentions a music player that I hold all of my memories on. Moving further into the album, the music takes a dark turn and focuses on traumatic experiences I have had with bullying and physical abuse in public places like school and summer camp. All of this leads up to a chaotic track called "treading water" which specifically focuses on the worst experience I had regarding physical abuse. After this, I immediately move into a track that sonifies the horrors of being in a shutdown state where I can't use my senses after something traumatic happens. From here to the end, the album shifts focus to building myself up and finding acceptance in myself. The first part of "stimulation bridge" is about finding a safe space where I can be my true self without anyone spectating me and judging me for being myself. The next track "the moment i belong" would be the climax of the album where I find people that also accept me at college. From here, the album ends with a bang! The music builds in intensity until the very end and is overall full of positive vibes.
This album could be seen like a reverse arch. The first 5 tracks start at a level place and end up deep in a valley. The last 5 tracks skyrocket back up into the stratosphere of happiness. The album also has two climaxes in each half. The climax for the first half would be the track "treading water", and the climax for the second half would be "the moment i belong".
Songs in the Album
i am who i am
"i am who i am" opens the album. This track is mostly meant to introduce the listener to myself and is sung based on my present day self. The song is slow, but full of hope and positivity.
music player time capsule
"music player time capsule" is technically the first track to start the story the album is telling. The song touches on an electronic device that I have had for most of my life that holds value to me. This device is an iPod from 2004. Every time I use it, I am adding a new chapter to my life, yet I can still look back and see the tracks I put on it in the past. This is how I see such a device, and this plays an important part in my story. It establishes the idea that objects can have significant value to me, and a device like an iPod can be a great way to escape the worlds taunting and judgment on people like me.
surrounded by thorns
"surrounded by thorns" introduces one of the symbols in the album which are thorns. Thorns symbolize the people who put me down as I try to build myself up. There is a recurring line in the song that says "I cannot climb without shedding blood". Shedding blood refers to the thorns causing me pain and stopping me from being the best self I can be. This song breaks down and continues into the next track.
Considered the climax of the first half of the album, "treading water" sonifies the most traumatic event of my life. This is not something I am comfortable explaining here on this page, but be assured that this track is intense. I did not hold back on making this track feel exactly like the memory I have of this event in my life. Trigger warning for sudden loud noises and high frequencies.
"nothing" depicts the horrors of being in an autistic shutdown. This track proceeds "treading water" as that event did invoke me to shut down. The track starts out bombastic, depicting the many different thoughts racing in my head, and my search for my own senses. After this, the track settles down and I sing about what it feels like having a shutdown, which in one word would be "nothing".
(track yet to be named)
Nothing for this track has been written yet. This track will shift the album to focus on building myself up and breaking through the obstacles in my life.
stimulation bridge part 1
If any symbol in the album has to be the most significant, the bridge would be one of those. "stimulation bridge part 1" introduces the idea of an abandoned bridge where I can freely stim and be myself without people bullying me or judging me for being myself. It also symbolizes a safe space where I can be vulnerable with the people in my life that I love. The music is very calming and hopeful.
the moment i belong
For the second half of the album, "the moment i belong" would be the climax track. This track marks a significant part of my life where I felt accepted for being my true self for the first time. When I started making friends at Oberlin College, I realized that true friendship was something I was lacking for a long time in my life. I also never had someone to share experiences with until going to college. The track is a duet between two people and is supposed to sound like these two people (one of them being me) having a conversation about our past experiences. The track builds in intensity the whole time and has a climatic ending.
(track yet to be named)
Nothing for this track has been written yet. This track will be a transition track into the final track in the album.
stimulation bridge part 2
"stimulation bridge part 2" ends the album with a dramatic and positive bang! The music is simple, yet uplifting, bringing back the main melody from part 1.
Listen to the Album
"On the Bridge" will release in early 2022. For samples, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org